A teenage love<3

Sunday, June 21, 2009 ; 3:44 AM♥

teengae love<3

Lost Love

I look down and than back at him. He was so cute I wanted to say yes to him. Standing in front of the church facing each other as the priest says the words. The words that should mean everything to me, words that are suppose to hold me and him together for life. But yet I didn't seem to listen to them. I couldn't help think how my life would be if I marry him. I only met him once and it wasn't even a proper meeting. I love my parents I had to say yes to this marriage even though I didn't know this guy. But what was giving me the most pain was that I was leaving the love of my life behind. I did love Jake a lot from all my heart but when he cheated on me I decided to listen to my parents and let them find a guy for me. I am not even sure if I am ready to get marry to this guy. Soon I will be Mrs. Lensey 'what kind of last name is that anyway?' I love the white beautiful dress I am wearing but yet I am not happy isn't marriage suppose to be the best day in a girl life but than why am I not happy? Why can't I forget Jake and try to be happy with my about to be husband. Just standing here I feel like all the memories coming back of me and Jake. I was in grade 12 and It was our english class when I first saw him. I was the new girl in school of course I was shy but more than that I was scare. I didn't wanted to move to a new place and leave my old house but my parents wouldn't listen to me. So far the day was going okay I didn't do anything embracing. When I enter the class my eyes went straight at Jake he was so cute, so innocent. His eyes that were sparkling and his black hair covering his forehead. 'Watch out!' someone yelled but it was to late. I bump into the table and in matter on minutes was on the ground. Everyone was looking at me even he was. My heart was beating so fast I got up as fast as I could and took a seat. I decided not to ever show my face to Jake. He must think i'm a loser I thought to myself. The bus was waiting so I got in I didn't expect to see Jake there but there he was sitting and looking outside the window. I was about to take a seat in front of him but before I could sit someone else came and sat down. 'You can sit here' Jake said looking up. My heart start beating fast again his smile was amazing. 'Thanks' I said and sit beside him. 'So your new here?' He ask looking into my eyes. I wasn't really comfortable with my self. I didn't consider myself ugly but I wasn't cute either. I was always behind when it comes to guy actually I was surprise that he was even talking to me. 'Ya my parents just move here from Toronto' 'You want me to show you around? Saskatoon is not a big town' He said looking at me. 'That be great' I told him. It was chilly outside even though it was May the weather here wasn't exactly warm. We got out of bus and the first thing he decided to show me was the movie theatre. After watching the movie and talking to each other we decided to go to the park. 'So tell me about your family' I said sitting on the bench and looking at the water. 'Well my parents are divorce and I have a big sister and you?' I loved his voice. I love everything about him. He was a guy you just dream of. 'My parents are together, Mom is a doctor and Dad have his own business. I don't have any siblings' The conversation went on and on. We talk about everything there was to talk about. Finally at the end of the day Jake asked me if I wanted to go out on a date on saturday and I couldn't believe how happy I was. Our first kiss was beautiful. It was in the moonlight as we were sitting looking at the stars. It was so soft and passionate. We both not only liked each other but we really loved each other. We stayed with each other for two years everything was so perfect. It was like I was living a fairy tale. I don't even know what went wrong. I remember going to a party that he invited me to. The whole college was there. We were dancing and having such a good time but than he said he will be back. After about 20 mins when he didn't come back I start getting worried. I start asking people if they saw him. 'Hey did you see Jake anywhere?' I ask the girl standing near the swimming pool. 'You mean him?' She said pointed at Jake who was kissing a girl. No he wasn't just kissing he was making out when her. She was all over him. I felt tears come out of my eyes. I went up to him. 'What the hell are you doing!' I ask looking at him. 'I...I...' He looks at me than at that girl. He gets the girl off him and touches my hand but I take my hand of his. 'Listen I'm sorry, I didn't mean to she was....' I cut him off before he can say anything else. 'Is over! Jake I can't believe you did this' I said and run to my car. I didn't answer his phone calls I didn't meet him. I didn't wanted to know his reasons and his excuses for doing this. After this when my mom told me that she wanted me to get marry I didn't bother saying no. I was sure that there is nothing to live for so I rather make my parents happy. I trust Jake so much he was different, he was perfect but here I am getting marry to someone else. I feel like crying but I try to hide it so no one can tell that I wasn't happy with what is happening. 'I do' I hear Matt say. I look at him, he holds my hand and put a ring in my finger. 'Do you Jennifer Ryern take Matt Lesley to be your husband' father said. I can still back away I can say no but no this is not what I'm going to do. I take a deep breath and look at Matt again who was smiling at me I smile back and say yes. All of the sudden I was married in matter of moments I was married to a stranger who I just know the name of. Matt kisses me and I kiss him back. It was soft and light. I don't know if I was ever going to be the same as I was before. I don't know if I can love Matt or anyone ever again. Is it true when they say that you can only fall in love once in your life time?