Love Doesn't Exist

I felt sick to my stomach watching him kiss her. I haven’t had these kinds of feelings in a long time. Was I really jealous? I just have to be honest with myself…and yes, I was. I didn’t want Andre’s lips on anyone’s but mine.

“You okay?” James broke my thoughts.

“I’m fine.” I just have to find an easy way to let James know that I’m leaving and this isn’t going where it once may have been. I felt bad for leading him on but for once in a very long while, I decided I had to silence these insecure thoughts in my head…and follow my heart. I would get outta here and call Andre tomorrow. I had to let him know about these feelings that have somehow penetrated my walls.

“James, I don’t think I can do this whole revenge thing. I thought I could because you are definitely hot” I said with a wink, “but I guess I’m not over him”.

“Damn. You sure? It would really be giving it to him” he said with a desperate look.

“I’m sure.” With that he slid out of the booth and headed for the bar.

“Damn, tease”, I heard him say under his breath. And he had every right. He was hot so I’m sure he’d have no problem finding someone to ease his pain tonight.

I slid out of the booth with a faint smirk on my face. I finally knew what I wanted and I wasn’t afraid to admit it. I wanted Andre for myself. As I walked out of the door, I glanced in his direction. His arm was around her in an intimate embrace. A cold tingle surged through my body. I hated seeing them together like that. Sigh. Tomorrow. The cold slapped me in the face as I opened the door. It was beginning to rain out as I walked to my car. The rain felt so good on my face. I stopped short of unlocking my car. I closed my eyes and turned my face towards the sky. I lost myself in my thoughts while the soft rain tickled my face. I felt so…what was this that I was feeling? It seemed so foreign. But I seemed to be having a lot of strange feelings lately…since I’d met Andre. Andre.

“Feels good doesn’t it?” A voice was suddenly in front of me. I quickly opened my eyes. Andre. I just stood there silently looking into his eyes. I wasn’t prepared to tell him about these feelings yet.

“Yes”, I managed. “It feels so…” I paused struggling to find the word that had twice escaped me.

“Free”, he whispered as he closed his eyes and let the rain hit his face.

An alarming but warm sensation filled my heart. He hit the nail on the head. Yes. Free. The rain made me feel free…and I later realized that so did he. I watched him in the rain and analyzed every line on his beautiful face.

My Fairytale Love

After a month and half of being together and being there in Korea he sent me a msg that his 15days vacation from the army got approved and his plan was to take me to Seoul, the capital city of Korea. Because he said I’m sure gonna like it cause it such a nice place then he has a surprise for me. So I keep asking him what is it, I cant sleep thinking about that surprise thingy. He just give me a clue that after I got off from work on that day we are going for a picnic in our favorite park. The wolmeoung Park in Kunsan City, South Korea. Its a mountainous park that has alot of hills and steps. So I have no choice than to wait for that day and find out what is this surprise.
Finally the day came and we got so lucky cause that time of his leave there is a military exercise on base so pretty much we dont have to work either cause there will be no customers.
I went to the hotel where he stayed so we could to do our picnic plan. It was about 6 o’clock in the evening so its starting to get dark. Picnic at night :)
Then while we’re about to go upstairs in the park he look at me and ask me if i braid my hair before since we met (like sanchai, Barbie XU in meteor garden) and I said “no” then he ask me again if i have a cap just like what I wear now before we met? I said “no, this is the first cap i had and we just bought it yesterday”. So I wonder , I asked him why? He just said “Deja vou” . I ask him again what is that mean, deja vou? Then he said he had this dream before, that he saw this girl wearing the same cap as mine now and had a braided hair.

So we reach the top of Wolmeoung park, we climb the highest hill. Its pretty cool place cause we can see the breathtaking view of the city and the lights are sparkling like the stars cause its night time. But before we reach the top I saw a falling star! So its really like Meteor Garden, isnt it?
While we’re on the top of the hill I’m surprised that his pack bag was full of my favorite food, coleslaw, rice, chicken and snickers! Then we just sat there and look the views around, its like the stars come down to earth beacuse the lights of the city.
Then I stood up and told him that I’m preparing myself now when he leave in the army cause he’s only got 8 more months left while i still have almost 10 momths left. Then he said he might leave the army but it doesnt mean that his gonna leave Korea or he might leave Korea but it doesnt mean that his gonna leave me. He will always come back for me, no matter what thats why……. then he hug me so tight and hes pulling something on his pocket “thats why, Chirel will you marry me?”
And I was just like “wh..at!?” Are yo serious? then he said, of all the things he made this is the only one that he has no doubt of doing but he is afraid that I might say no. He said I’m not asking you to marry me now but I’m hoping that you’re gonna accept my proposal and wear this ring as proof that you are mine” . I was so shocked and I cry looking at him holding that sparkly little ring and asking me to marry him. Of course, I give him my hand and said “yes!”
Then he told me the whole story of that dream he has, he said that he has this dream before that he ask this woman wearing a cap just like mine, with a braided hair just like me to marry him and it was in the park. So he said, I already had a dream of you even before we met. He was surprised too when he saw me at first wearing that
certain cap and have this braided hair.
Its really amazing how did it all happened. I never dream of being engaged cause we dont usually do that in the Philippines specially if you’re only getting married to a filipino. And he really bring so much surprises to my life. He treat me like a princess, an angel and for him I am very beautiful which I often disagree cause I still have that thing on my mind that I am ugly. But now who cares if I’m ugly or not, I found this man that loves me till death and wake me up that I am beautiful. And I always be beautiful to him.
I am a big fan of a romantic story and I never dream that I could have my own. Not even in my dreams I never expected this things in my life. Surprises, love, adventures and more.
That night while we are at the hotel, he was sleeping and I’m still awake and i’m like crazy looking at my finger with my engagement ring on it and I couldnt stop myself from smiling. I dont wanna wake up if its just a dream, but thank God its not! Its reality!

Vampire love - Fire test

‘I’ll wait for you on the other end...good luck and remember do what you think is right’ Jace said giving me a smile.

I was about to enter the place when I bump into someone to my surprise it was Lynx.

‘Wooo, what you doing here?’ I ask surprise.

‘I came here to say good luck, I hope you pass this and I have something to give you that might help’ she said giving me a smile.

She hands me a bracelet which had all the color stones around them. I look at her confuse.

‘What is this for...?’ I ask looking at her.

‘When the times come you’ll know’ she said and with that she vanishes.

I look at the bracelet and continue moving.

I couldn’t believe what I was seeing; this place was something that I see in TV’s.

The place had a huge gate and the outer part look like a castle but as I cross the bridge which had hot boiling water on both sides.

I couldn’t help but be surprise, the place was dark and it looks mysterious. I could see many bats hanging upside down.

As I cross the door, I see a man walking towards me this man was wearing a white robe and he was old maybe in his 70’s but I guess that’s something else in vampires years.

‘Welcome, we were expecting you. Here is your map just follow and you will reach your destiny also when you reach this place you will have to throw this map out and get another map which will show you another path’ The man said in his old crunchy voice.

I take the map and look at it, I was surprise by the way it was drawn.

The man starts leaving – ‘Wait...I can’t read this’ I said looking at the map and then at the man’ – the man turns around and gives me a smile ‘Just concentrate’ He said and vanish into thick air.

I look at the map carefully but nothing seems to make sense. I had never learnt about this and by looking at this I couldn’t figure anything out. I decide to move and think at the same time.

I couldn’t stop but stare at the letter which was shaped like an 'H', I don’t know how but this map started to make sense to me.

he map seems like bunch of letters on top of each other. I decide to follow the first letter which was shape like an ‘H’.

The castle was dark but with my eye sight it wasn’t hard to see. Walking in the empty dark hallway I saw many cats staring at me. They all were black with bright eyes, but instead of giving me a horrible feeling I got a comfort feeling. I felt like they are there to protect me.

I reach the door where the map ended, this door was closed. I put my hand on the handle and take a deep breath. I wasn’t scare but I want to come back see my mom, Stuart, and maybe I can find my dad after this is done....but for some reason I wanted to see Jace the most.

I take another deep breath and open the door. My mouth opens and my eyes widen, it looks like a center of volcano. There was a hot lava bubbling and a thin bridge.

I look around and all I could see was bats which were surprising, I didn’t expect bats to be here in this burning hot temperature.

The map told me to cross the bridge, this bridge didn’t look strong. It was actually thin and seem like it will break easily.

I start walking on the bridge, I tried not to look down but it was hard not to. I was sweating and couldn’t take the heat but I keep on walking. The hot fire was bubbling higher and higher. I look down and back up – I let out a scream – It was the weirdest creature I have ever seen.

It look like it was made up of fire but it wasn’t all fire. It looks like a crocodile with fire around it.

I was staring at the creature as it starts to move towards me. It wasn’t moving fast it was slow. I felt like I couldn’t think but I remembered that this creature has fire around it and maybe I can use water. I make a ball of water and throw it at the creature. It doesn’t move but the fire disappears.

I call air and blow it as hard as I can. When the air hit the creature, it let out a scream and fell down the bridge into the magma. I look down and see the creature slowly disappear.

I take a deep breath and start walking again. I was half way done and I was planning to run when I hear the noise.

It was that creature again and this time it has more fire. I do the same thing but this time it doesn’t work.

The volcano was starting to shake and the creature was moving towards me faster this time. I try the water and air again but nothing happens.

I hear a voice inside me saying ‘Use fire with fire’. I look at the creature confuse but I make a ball of fire and hit the creature.

The creature screams again and the fire gets less. I do this again and again as the creature cry in pain. It fell into the magma again and I run through the bridge without looking back.

I didn’t care if the bridge break, I just wanted to cross this. The volcano shakes again and again.

When I get to the other side, the volcano starts shaking harder than ever. The magma starts to rise and I was horrified but I felt like I couldn’t move, I felt like my legs weren’t working.

‘Air, water, earth and fire shield me!’ I said as the magma rises and finally erupts.

I close my eyes and didn’t dare open them. I don’t know how long my eyes were close for but when I open them everything was quit.

It was dark again and it seems like I was dreaming, there wasn’t any volcano or lava. All I see was a dark spot around me.

‘That was impressive’ the same man said as I look at him terrified.

‘What happen? How did I survive that?’ I ask staring at the man.

‘You did well, you pass your first test’ I look at him confuse.

‘I did??...but...the volcano erupted’

I thought that I was supposed to stop the volcano from erupting.

‘Yes but you were able to kill the fire creature and you were able to survive, here is your other map’ He said and disappear before I could ask him anything else.

I look at the map and it was shape like an ‘A’ I take a deep breath and start walking towards the direction.

Dear Stars

This may be the first time i write to you but I'm sure i am no way a stranger to your radiance. maybe because of the many times i wish upon your glow every time i think of HIM. i wonder how many secrets you keep coming from the countless people who look and wish upon you every night. people wish and talk to you for many reasons. for me, you're the best way to get to him because you are that same stars he sees every time he looks up at night and it feels good knowing that no matter how far we are from each other we have that same thing we see as if we are just sitting side by side.sometimes when i get so enchanted, i would picture my self sitting beside him and that would make you sparkle even more mingling the blaze i feel within my heart. you never fail to arrest me. now i am wishing the same thing; if only you could bring HIM to my arms just for a moment and send HIM back again... i really hope you could do that or just something close to that. coz i miss him so and it hurts me every time i wish he's with me. but i think you won't be able to do that tonight, not even close to it. i can barely see you. fading away and fighting hard to be visible again. and fading away completely. without you, the sky has that certain gloom mingling my sorrow. the air chills my heart and soul. it's cold out here and colder inside me. i wish i could stay up for the night and lit you all up, but i, myself, have faded my glow. the pain and sorrow eats up the flame that you have lit up from the nights we had been together. i looked up to you tonight thinking you could lit me up too but i think I'll sleep disappointed. i hope tomorrow night would be different. i hope you'll glow. for me. so that you'll make me glow again and bring HIM to my arms one more time. I'm not giving up. i am counting on you. I'll see you all tomorrow... for now I'll close my eyes imagining you're glow upon the darkness of my imagination. i wish you'll glow there and enchant me again like you always do...

First let me just say that I did not write this Emilia Parsunke has written this and I do not take credict for her work. I found it really amazing and I had to post it...


Why should we follow that, what has finished now? You know, there isn't anything because nothing was. There wasn't sign of the yellow flowers, there wasn't any tension in my lonely look. And Love didn't play murderer and didn't stab us like a lightning with its flashing knife. Then there wasn't parting, when I did crumple the charred manuscript and smell my cherished dry rose (I never dropped my tears upon them); and you didn't come into my sad scrappy dreams. I had no walks alone, when I asked for you left me to myself.

And I didn't scream husky, "I'm invisible and free!" as I flied loosely above the sleeping earth. I couldn't recall that great ball because I was tired then and I've never believed in the reality of what was going on. So we didn't meet there, and you didn't say about everything always returns the same like it was; it's impossible, because something never comes twice. And we weren't taken away with Death for our final flight, when we did sense the human sorrows, curled up to us like the thin mist smokes above the marshes. They wept for they were burdened with misery, they were tired of it. We heard them, but it didn't move us. We never saw the great night, we never flied ahead it, and it didn't claim to catch us, to make us blind with its dark, it didn't wink to us rarely with the single strange lights from the earth, we left far below. Playing so, the night didn't give us as a guide the moon; it was like a round cheese, but it didn't smile us for the stupid salutation. While we were flying through the night, the lantern of moon wasn't hanging somewhere aside and showing us the way.

So where did we get? And did we? I'd kept in mind some place, there was no any word, only the pure sand was running in the hour-glass, but we didn't see the quiet and didn't hear it. I thought, just there the time came, since our broken memory has began to die, but has it really done?

And you, do you believe in true love, when the one must to share a lot of the other? But if you do, I will too.

Lost Love

I look down and than back at him. He was so cute I wanted to say yes to him. Standing in front of the church facing each other as the priest says the words. The words that should mean everything to me, words that are suppose to hold me and him together for life. But yet I didn't seem to listen to them. I couldn't help think how my life would be if I marry him. I only met him once and it wasn't even a proper meeting. I love my parents I had to say yes to this marriage even though I didn't know this guy. But what was giving me the most pain was that I was leaving the love of my life behind. I did love Jake a lot from all my heart but when he cheated on me I decided to listen to my parents and let them find a guy for me. I am not even sure if I am ready to get marry to this guy. Soon I will be Mrs. Lensey 'what kind of last name is that anyway?' I love the white beautiful dress I am wearing but yet I am not happy isn't marriage suppose to be the best day in a girl life but than why am I not happy? Why can't I forget Jake and try to be happy with my about to be husband. Just standing here I feel like all the memories coming back of me and Jake. I was in grade 12 and It was our english class when I first saw him. I was the new girl in school of course I was shy but more than that I was scare. I didn't wanted to move to a new place and leave my old house but my parents wouldn't listen to me. So far the day was going okay I didn't do anything embracing. When I enter the class my eyes went straight at Jake he was so cute, so innocent. His eyes that were sparkling and his black hair covering his forehead. 'Watch out!' someone yelled but it was to late. I bump into the table and in matter on minutes was on the ground. Everyone was looking at me even he was. My heart was beating so fast I got up as fast as I could and took a seat. I decided not to ever show my face to Jake. He must think i'm a loser I thought to myself. The bus was waiting so I got in I didn't expect to see Jake there but there he was sitting and looking outside the window. I was about to take a seat in front of him but before I could sit someone else came and sat down. 'You can sit here' Jake said looking up. My heart start beating fast again his smile was amazing. 'Thanks' I said and sit beside him. 'So your new here?' He ask looking into my eyes. I wasn't really comfortable with my self. I didn't consider myself ugly but I wasn't cute either. I was always behind when it comes to guy actually I was surprise that he was even talking to me. 'Ya my parents just move here from Toronto' 'You want me to show you around? Saskatoon is not a big town' He said looking at me. 'That be great' I told him. It was chilly outside even though it was May the weather here wasn't exactly warm. We got out of bus and the first thing he decided to show me was the movie theatre. After watching the movie and talking to each other we decided to go to the park. 'So tell me about your family' I said sitting on the bench and looking at the water. 'Well my parents are divorce and I have a big sister and you?' I loved his voice. I love everything about him. He was a guy you just dream of. 'My parents are together, Mom is a doctor and Dad have his own business. I don't have any siblings' The conversation went on and on. We talk about everything there was to talk about. Finally at the end of the day Jake asked me if I wanted to go out on a date on saturday and I couldn't believe how happy I was. Our first kiss was beautiful. It was in the moonlight as we were sitting looking at the stars. It was so soft and passionate. We both not only liked each other but we really loved each other. We stayed with each other for two years everything was so perfect. It was like I was living a fairy tale. I don't even know what went wrong. I remember going to a party that he invited me to. The whole college was there. We were dancing and having such a good time but than he said he will be back. After about 20 mins when he didn't come back I start getting worried. I start asking people if they saw him. 'Hey did you see Jake anywhere?' I ask the girl standing near the swimming pool. 'You mean him?' She said pointed at Jake who was kissing a girl. No he wasn't just kissing he was making out when her. She was all over him. I felt tears come out of my eyes. I went up to him. 'What the hell are you doing!' I ask looking at him. 'I...I...' He looks at me than at that girl. He gets the girl off him and touches my hand but I take my hand of his. 'Listen I'm sorry, I didn't mean to she was....' I cut him off before he can say anything else. 'Is over! Jake I can't believe you did this' I said and run to my car. I didn't answer his phone calls I didn't meet him. I didn't wanted to know his reasons and his excuses for doing this. After this when my mom told me that she wanted me to get marry I didn't bother saying no. I was sure that there is nothing to live for so I rather make my parents happy. I trust Jake so much he was different, he was perfect but here I am getting marry to someone else. I feel like crying but I try to hide it so no one can tell that I wasn't happy with what is happening. 'I do' I hear Matt say. I look at him, he holds my hand and put a ring in my finger. 'Do you Jennifer Ryern take Matt Lesley to be your husband' father said. I can still back away I can say no but no this is not what I'm going to do. I take a deep breath and look at Matt again who was smiling at me I smile back and say yes. All of the sudden I was married in matter of moments I was married to a stranger who I just know the name of. Matt kisses me and I kiss him back. It was soft and light. I don't know if I was ever going to be the same as I was before. I don't know if I can love Matt or anyone ever again. Is it true when they say that you can only fall in love once in your life time?

Vampire love - Tears

After fixing the flowers I found lot about Stuart as we start walking in the garden which was now looking beautiful. Stuart told me that he is a son of Eriuck. When Stuart mentions the name Eriuck I was sure who he was talking about because in my English class we did read a book that mentions his name. Eriuck is one of the gifted vampires, he was not born as a vampire, he did not get bitten to become one and his parents had nothing to do with vampires. When Eriuck turns eighteen he starts feeling weird. Different kind of things started to happen to him that's when he realize that he was different from everyone else. The other vampires found him on the road sitting like a homeless person. Soon after talking to him they realize that he was one of them and took him in. Now he is the leader of all the vampires and he is the most handsome man/vampire that have ever been seen. No wonder Stuart look so handsome. I heard that when Lord Eriuck (that's what they call him) battles it is something to see, when he steps in the room everyone’s eyes goes on him, and when he speaks you don't want him to stop. He is so beautiful that even angels are nothing in front of him. When someone looks at him they can't keep their eyes of him. I wanted to meet this man since the day I found out about him but that time I didn’t know if it was real. 'Can I meet him?' I ask looking at Stuart who was telling me about the place he used to live in. 'Even I am not allowed to meet him, he only meets me when he want to talk to me about something important' Stuart said like he was not happy about the fact that his own father didn't had time for him. 'Please, I really want to see him. I heard so much about him!' I said giving Stuart an innocent look. 'The next time he wants to see me you can come too' He said giving me his sweet smile. After talking to Stuart little more I decided to take some rest since I had to do some hunting tonight. I didn't realize how fast the days were going. I am starting to miss my mom even more than before I want to see her but I don’t know how. I would have asked Jace but he seems in his own little world. The last time I talk to him was that day and after that I don't know what happen but he wouldn't even look at me. I was going back in my room when I bump into someone when I look up it was Jace. I was surprise to see him and he seems more surprise than I was. He gives me a smile and I smile back. 'Where have you been?' I ask in a serious voice. 'Just here and there been busy' He said still smiling at me. 'Jace what the hell is wrong with you? You don't even talk to me anymore; you know how alone I feel!' I was almost yelling. I didn't know where all of this came from but I felt like I had to take this entire thing out. 'Alone?' Jace said making a face. 'You have Evan' he said looking down. 'So this is about Evan? Is that why you won't talk to me! Jace I said it was a mistake' I said holding back my tears. I didn't want to cry but the way he was acting was hurting me. He wouldn't even make any eye contact with me. 'No is not about him!' Jace said shaking his head and then he looks at me. 'I don't want to stay away from you Rose but...' He said touching my cheeks softly and my both hands on his waist. 'But?' I ask looking at him confuse but I was getting lost in his beautiful eyes. 'If you and I get together you might have to do things that are evil' when he said this I got more confuse. 'I'm danger to you Rose' he said blinking his eyes. 'What you mean? I'm confused!' I said as he lets me go and starts to move away from me. 'Our stars don't meet!' He said walking away. 'Jace I heard you talk to that woman! You said you love me Jace you can't just say that our stars don't meet' I said holding back my tears. Jace stops walking and look back at me. 'I do love you and I will love you forever but we can't be together it will be against nature' He said looking down. 'I will become your weakness and I don't want that! I want to be your power not weakness but this is going to happen. People will want you to do things with your power by blackmailing you or hurting you and they might use me to get you to do these evil things. I want to protect you, I don't want to become the reason to harm you' I look at him and move forward. ‘I don’t care what happens I want to be with you’ I said kissing his soft lips. He kisses me back not passionate but soft and sweet. He holds my face in his hands again and looks into my eyes. He kisses my forehead and starts to walk away. As he walks I move back and hit the wall with tears running down my face.

He & She

He looks around at her as she sits in the rain, tears pouring down her face.

She looks at him as he stares at her in the rain, broken-hearted.
He walks inside his house, broken from braking a heart.
She sees him walk inside his house, relieved to tell her.
He sits on his bed, listening to the raindrops as he hates himself for what he has done.
She feels hollow inside, feeling like no one will care about her anymore.
He starts to cry as he realizes what she could do to herself.
She starts to cry as she realizes how happy he must be.
They both cry to the pattern of the rain as they both realize what is happening.

PROBLEMS:
Teenagers have problems connected with their parents who don`t understand their needs, meaning that they always want to be free with no obstacles, like a bird. In this case, parents are a branch that the little bird hits when it flies.
Diana and Simona

As we approach teenage years, both males and females go through some rough times. Speaking from a female position, I know how hard it is to worry if you look okay and if you're "developing" enough. For males, they go through changes in their body and their voice. They are faced with situations such as steroids and other "masculine" drugs. Men are propagandized into believing they need to be tall, dark, and handsome with so much muscle mass and as little fat as possible.
However, I think the emphasis of the hardships on teens is more toward females. There is such a demand in the media and in our everyday life for females to be that ideal, 5' 10", 100 pound, blonde, blue-eyed, big chested woman.
We are constantly bombarded with images and advertisements to be something we physically can't be.
Katelyn

My life is like a labyrinth.
It starts somewhere and then you have to find the right way. You will find the end sooner or later and that is it. But on this way you have to solve a lot of problems. There are stones in the labyrinth which want to stop you.
Especially now; in the teenage time; I have got many problems. There are things which move their mood but that is soon gone.I think grown-ups have more problems than most teenagers have. They do not have parents who are often here to help us. Adults are on their own. But they are older.
Teenagers are often sad. I am sad, too. I forget the good and positive things in my life. Everthing seems to be negative. (…)
Perhaps teenagers make themselves too many problems. They forget that they are not alone, that there is somebody who helps them: their parents, their teachers or their friends. Even teachers often seem to be monsters but they do not want to destroy your life. Teachers are human beings and they have got little mistakes like you and me. Of course there are teachers who are real monsters, too.
Not everything is bad. You have to keep on hoping for better times even if you do not know if better times are possible.
Sandra

There are problems in a teenager's life, but I think they are basically a part of evolution and becoming adult. That actually means that these things are not real problems, but it is just the way of managing them.
Often teachers and parents cannot handle them because they don't understand and know teenagers, especially their wishes, problems or different moods in a short time. Parents don't understand that getting adult and more responsible is often pretty hard, so teenagers have to solve their problems first. That's why they are impolite, unsocial or crazy. They are not selfconfident any more and have to hide that by attacking others.
I think I was or even am a good example of that kind of people. My parents and I argued a lot because the teachers didn't want me to interrupt their lessons or have fun with other things while the were teaching. But I got useed to these situations so I did hardly improve. Teachers hated me and I hated them, but my parents always helped me getting out of these bad situations. When I went too far they punished me. I was not allowed to use my computer any more, for example, or to go out on weekends.I think both sides, teachers (parents) and teenagers have to find together frequently to talk about their problems, their relationship and what they have to keep alive.
Parents should have a basic understanding for teenagers even when they exaggerate. But teenagers also have to learn to improve and work hard.
Cornelius

Teenager's problems
The problem is that the older people like parents and teachers differ from the teenagers. They have had a different education with different norms. Generally speaking whenever we meet older people two different world confront each other. This sometimes leads to conflicts as if you meet people of a different nationality. But I myself get along with them well. Indeed; there are some exceptions. You can't like all your teachers, can you? I often have my own opinion. Teachers are only humans and they make mistakes like giving bad grades or being too stupid to make an experiment in Physics and so on. I make mistakes, too. My father is teacher at my school and so I get to know some teachers better.
Martin (G@ND@LF)

The Only Thing I Think About

Why won't he call?
Why won't he write me back?
Why won't he love me?
Why won't he see me?
Why won't he tell me his feelings?
Why won't he realize the feelings I have for him?

Why doesn't he like me?
Why does he go out with every girl but me?
Why does he play with my mind?
Why do my friends say I should forget about him?
Why don't I forget about him?

Why can't he make up his mind?
Why can't he read the signs I've given to him?

Why must he keep me waiting?
Why must he keep me hanging on a ledge?

Why is he the only thing I think about?

Why?

Edith Carson, Age: 17

FRIENDS:
Friendships and relationships can be hard to receive, keep, and maintain. Things like gossip, rumors, and deception can ruin people in an instant.
In most schools gossip spreads quicker than a disease. If you tell someone a secret that he/she can't keep, most likely, the whole school will find out about it. Not all good things last, especially high school relationships and friendships. It is said that when an average person moves on to college, he/she will only keep in touch with one or two high school friends. It's sad to see what time and distance can do to friendships.
Edith

Sometimes I believe teenagers' lives begin in the emotional way.
We want to be loved by a girl or a boy. Our parents seem as if they want to stop us. Our friends are more important than ever. Those people help us. And most friends are of our age. They have got similar problems and they understand us. But we have to solve our problems on our own. We want to be free, we want to do what we think is right. Sometimes we are not allowed to do that.
Sandra

Emotional Drama

Time has passed me by,
Yet never once did I forget your face.
The hurt, the anger, the grief,
Has lessened now, but never faded away.

You left me without a thorough explanation,
Why, oh why, did you do that to me?
I hate good-byes and sorrows,
Now all that's left is a painful memory.

I just can't take the pain,
I just can't stand the hurt,
'Emotional drama' is the name of the game,
When you left and never looked back.

I gave you the time that was precious to me,
Gave up so many things to be helpful to you.
You disappointed me in so many things,
What I wouldn't do to forgive you.

It's now all over, yet it's not really,
Can never forget what you did to me,
Forever imbedded in my dazed mind,
It's time for the final farewell.
Vinthi Thach, Age: 17, March 17, 2002

PEER PRESSURE :

There are a lot of things that may distract or tempt a teenager to do wrong things.
Peer pressure can easily force teens to do smoking, sex, and drugs. Most teenagers know that it's wrong, but they feel like they need to do these things in order to fit in and be cool. But fortunately most teens know how to handle it by saying no.
Edith

I think some of the hardest issues teenager face are what's "acceptable" and what's "expected."
Teenage years are a time when the sole decision of right and wrong is based on what we see and hear. Peer pressure is more and more present, and the need to "fit in" can outweigh the "right" decision.
Katelyn

TEENAGE LIFE

There are many people
but you feel alone.
You want to do what you want
but your parents say when to come home.
You want to be a grown-up
but on the other hand you miss your childhood.
You are allowed to do so many new things
but there is the fear of decisions and responsibility.
You laugh, you cry, you keep quiet, you want to sing.
Sometimes you can`t explain what you feel. That are problems of TEENAGE LIFE.
Sometimes it`s really great
but it also can be as hard as a knife.
WIEBKE

DRUGS:
Another problem are drugs which are taken frequently by the teenagers from nowadays.
Those who take these drugs, don`t understand that it`s a bad thing and that those one can affect their health.
This problem can be solved with teachers , parents or even friends help, who can try to keep them far away from those vicious. In many cases, teenagers are influenced on doing bad things by the group they are spending their free time and don`t listen to the advises that are given by the ones who care about them and they only want their best.
Sexuality is another of nowadays problems of the teenagers and not only. They are interested on this thing and sometimes becomes more important than family or school, and they should not. If they have a sexual life they should protect themselves from AIDS or another disease. In our opinion, those are the most important and the most serious teenagers problems.
Diana Andrei & Simona Ilinescu

To Diana and Simona
Dear birds!
It´s Hanne and Maike and the Imke from Germany. Your text was very interesting and we think you both are very responsible persons, but don´t you think your opinion about certain things is a bit too unrealistic?
In your opinion teens should neither have a sexual life nor take any drugs. We hope that you don´t mind that we object to this attitude. We agree that it can be dangerous if you take too much of it, but we think that one should try certain things in life just to be able to judge it. We don´t think of heroine; of course; but maybe of rather harmless things like wheat. Did you never try or think about it? By the way, are drug users punished hard in your country?
About sex: We think that some people would be happy to have a sexual life. The rest of our class, for example. :-P Everybody wants to have sex, be honest! Will you never have been thinking about how it could be?
We (Maike and Imke) for example know that Hanne has a very wild and dirty sexual life. But she´s always pretending that she´s a lovely, nice virgin. 'No sex before Marriage'.
Hanne:"Hey, what are you two writing. That´s my sweet secret. I have to keep a good image in society. What will the teachers think about me?!"
Imke and me (Maike) in contrast to Hanne are true saints. We don´t change our boyfriends every day and we wanna wait for the first time till marriage because it´s something very special which you have to offer the person you will love till death.
"I´m not a girl and not yet a woman."
With these true words we want to say good bye and don´t forget to answer us.
We´re really looking forward to getting a mail from you birds.
Bye bye! Hanne, Maike and Imke
PS: Okay, the story about Hanne was just a joke, but she still can laugh.

PARENTS/ RULES/ SUPPORT:

Parents are much wiser than many teenagers are because they have experienced life and have gone through many learning experiences. I can see where parents don't want their teenagers to experience many of these things, and teenagers shouldn't, but it's a part of life, and bad things happen every day.
Teenagers should be comfortable in telling their parents what they think, but what the teenager says will only be up to the teenager. There are things that parents need to know, and others they may not need to know. When a teenager can't trust their parents, then there is something wrong.
The only things I expect from my parents are love and support. My parents do buy my clothes and will buy me a car, but I do work, and I help when needed, so we have reached the common ground.
I don't feel that teenagers' parents should be their friends. Yes, a parent should be there to support and help the teenagers through life, but not to make teenager's life a paradise. I feel that if a parent and teenager are friends, then the parents will feel that they can allow their teenager to do more harmful things for fear of losing their friendship.
When rules come into play, both parents and teenager should sit down and talk about them. They should talk about why the rules are being set, their views/feelings on the rules, the consequences of breaking the rules, and then maybe a common ground can be reached. Rules do need to be set, but they should be somewhat fair. If there were no rules, then the teenagers may end up doing something they would regret for the rest of their lives.
Ashley

With my parents I have absolutely no problems.
I am lazy and my father makes me work. That's good for me. When I have a problem I try to solve it myself. If that is impossible I ask the person who has the best knowledge of this problem. It depends on the kind of the problem. Usually I get help from my parents, my sister or my friends.
Martin

Family life can also be crazy when you're a teen.
Your parents can be annoying by nagging and punishing you all the time. For instance, even though I have good grades, my parents always complain that I spend more time on fun and less time on my studies. Your parents always check up on you, and they maybe even spy on you. The reason for that is because they care about you, and they worry about your life and your choices. Sometimes you get punished for nothing at all, or even for what your sibling did. For an example, when I was young, my younger sister would yell for no apparent reason, and my parents would blame me for making her yell. Your siblings can be even worse. They may pick on you, beat you up, do blackmail, or just be plain annoying. My sister would take pictures of me going on the computer when I wasn't supposed to be on so she could show proof to my parents! Even though parents and siblings can be extrememly embarrassing and annoying, though, they are an important part of our lives, and we will appreciate them more as we get older.
Edith

My parents and I

We think that in every family the relationship between parents and their children is very different and difficult to understand. Usually parents are friends to their children, but it is not always so. Bad relationship depends on parents at first and then on children, because parents are older than their children and they have more experience in comparison with us. Nowadays it is the time when children grow up faster than their parents did. That is why parents must control us more strictly. Without control of adults kids will have hard life. Because they will loose the right way of life they will become undisciplined and selfish. But on the other hand control of our parents influences us in a bad way because we must become independent.
At the age of 13-18 teenagers have a lot of problems in their life and the majority of them solve their problems themselves but we think that it is false. We should ask advice from our parents, because they know about life more and maybe they had the same problems.
Children mustn't expect anything from their parents because we must be able to do it ourselves.
Oxana and Ainur, Kazakhstan

For support, some teens turn to alcohol and drugs for "relief"... while others look to their friends or family for advice and guidance. Whether or not we WANT that support is very difficult to decide. Since we're in such an awkward stage of our lives, it's tough to choose between relying on someone else or being independent.
Katelyn

Gidday mate,

I was in Australia during my last summer holidays and I liked it so much. I want to say that I really like that country, but I never wish to live there at least maybe until I am older than now, because young people (those, who are younger than 21) aren`t allowed to drink beer or to stay at the disco until midnight. The parents are very strict in keeping those rules. I couldn`t believe that teenagers are only allowed to go to a disco for people who are under eighteen years old. at the disco everything that lookes like alcohol (I mean the commercials for example) was forbidden and it closed at eleven o`clock. I think some Australian teenagers wish that they were allowed to do more things. But there is one advantage: You can have your driving-licence when you are seventeen years old.
Naturally, the Australian laws are different from the German laws. In Germany, if you are older then sixteen years you can drink beer and go to disco until one o`clock in the morning. That is much better! ;-) Most of the parents of my friends allow their children to stay till three or four o`clock. I have got some arguments with my mother because she will not allow me to stay as long as the others. It`s not worth for me going to the disco because I have to go home when the real party starts and I am always sad that I had to pay so much money to get in there.
I only wrote stories about alcohol and parties, but that is not really the sense of life and I should go on with your topics! You asked how I do get along with my parents. That is a really interesting question if we`re talking about teenage problems. I have quite a good relationship with my mother, including that we trust each other. I can ask her for advice in every situation and she tries to find the best answer to solve a problem. I want to care for her in the way it is possible to me. Maybe it is akind of friendship but we also argue sometimes, but my mother is very cooperative in some situations.
Doreen

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Knowledge leads to unwillingness to accept
What is going on within a child's life.
To parent a child is to give them life,
And allow them to live it to the fullest.

Control, discipline, are part of the game,
So are giving, caring of anything that parents can.
Being a friend to a child is the best in the world,
But it can turn sour once you pass the invisible line.

That same line of trust and friendship
Cannot be broken as they grow.
Knowing that they will leave home,
Have their own family, is part of acceptance.

But acceptance is hard to receive
When a parent is in denial.
Know that the child will always need a parent,
As a flower needs the sun.
Tiffany Tompkins, Age: 17, March 18, 2002

MONEY:

One part of our independence is money and so our parents have to give us some pocket money. And if that money is not enough for us we must work and parents mustn't prohibit us to do it.
Oxana and Ainur, Kazakhstan

At some point in parents' lives their kids will ask them for money as we all do. I feel that the financial responsibility is something parents take on when they decide to have kids. On the other hand, the parents should also have their rules on money. The teenagers should have to earn the money on a reasonable basis such as chores. At a certain age I feel that teenagers should get a job so that they can support their need for extra things as well as to learn about money management.

Ashley Scarlett, Age: 15, April 10, 2002

Some teens try to balance their studies with a part time job to have some extra spending money.
This is a great way to learn about the responsibilities of the work life, but it sometimes interferes with getting school work done. I know that with my honors courses at school, I would never be able to balance schoolwork with other work. Many students decide to wait till the summer to get a job. Other teens mostly receive a weekly allowance from their parents. I usually get $10 a week from my Dad, and my grandmother always slips me some money when my mother isn't looking.
Edith

TEENAGERS ABOUT "BEING A TEENAGER":

Being a teenager is a strange and yet exciting part of life. We are faced with tough and critical decisions each and every day- decisions that will affect our lives. Everyone goes through the teenage years, but as people get older, they seem to lose touch with their teenage experiences and feel as though they can't relate to anything that teenagers go through.
Ashley

Between the Tears and the Anger
Oh, how I miss my preteen years. Can you recall those precious moments in the morning before you caught the bus for school? You'd stand in front of the mirror and gaze into the reflection before you- the mismatched clothes, the bad hair, the costume jewelry. You were a wreck. But as you might recall, you didn't bother caring... after all, you were only twelve. Then, one morning, you walk to the mirror to perform your daily routine, and "OH MY GOD, I'VE GOT A PIMPLE!"... or "WHY DOES HE HAVE SO MUCH MORE MUSCLE THAN I DO?!"... It happens, you've become a teen without any warning or preparation.
Becoming a teenager is a very difficult process.
So many changes are present during these years, and it's very difficult to adapt to them as quickly as they happen. I truly believe that teenage years are the hardest (I, of course, have no proof to back this up due to the fact that I haven't yet experienced "adult" life). How is it that we go from playing with Barbie and her little sister Skipper to WEARING what Barbie and her little sister Skipper wore?
Katelyn Miller, April 9, 2002

A Way of Life
Whether you like being a teenager or not, everyone at least learns one lesson in life during this period, if not more. Adolescence can be one huge party, and it can be hell at the same time.
Edith Carson, April 8, 2002

Speaking about being a teenager I can say that it is a wonderful time.
And I agree with you. Because when you are a teenager you can do nothing, you don't have to go to work, you should go to school. If we compare going to work and going to school I can say when you come out of school you do your homework and than you can go for a walk, watch TV, play computer games etc. But if you work you go for a walk early morning and come tonight. When you are a teenager you can go to the party, but when you are an adult you have a family, a child or children and that is why you must take care of your family.
That is why being teenager is a wonder-ful period of time!
Saida, Kazakhstan

A Big Part of My Life

When you were young, you thought you had the world at your fingertips, everything would always be okay. It's terribly funny how things work out, isn't it? I, myself, have found it difficult to get through days - convincing myself that God was out to get me. Life when you were young was so pure, so innocent.
Occasionally I also find myself getting lost in books, trying to find some common ground with someone. I even feel as though I felt a connection to a book about a mental institution (does it really surprise you?). Sometimes when you look around the world, there seems to be so much hatred. It really is so hard to sit back and enjoy your life, your culture. It seems as though everything is so foggy. All that fogginess fills up over the happiness, and you have to spend days finding some sort of safe haven. I am glad to know where my haven is. If you could just close your eyes for a moment and think back to those days, those days when you never had to worry about what you were wearing or what you looked like in a bathing suit; when you really did think that China could be found by digging a massive hole in your backyard…
I really like to think that Girl Dana is still a big part of my life and always will be.
Dana Arel, Age: 17, April 23, 2002

Despite the hardships teenagers face, I believe somewhere in between the tears and the anger that we can all enjoy our time as "young adults." Just think... ten years from now when you throw your back out and start balding, all you'll be saying to yourself is "What I wouldn't give to be seventeen again"! :-)
Katelyn Miller, April 30, 2002

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